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What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful <3 [Sep. 26th, 2006|07:21 pm]
vintage_xx_love
[Current Location |my room]
[Current Mood |artisticartistic]
[Current Music |Relient K - Be My Escape]

Okay so there's this kid Danny in my geometry class, and he's been trying to score points with me for like the past week and he's sooo annoying!!! I just want to be like err I'm not single...but then if he found out I was lying I would feel bad...In Our Honor got booked at Drifters!!! I'm not gonna say any more about that because Andy like wouldn't be my friend anymore haha. So DJ and I talked on Sunday and it was cool like no fighting or anything he just said that he did actually care about me but he wouldn't ever show it and I was like why? and he was like idk thats just me but I think what he meant to say was idk how to show you that I care. It was really reassuring to hear those words though, because I don't hear them very often. I really pray for that boy every night. I just hope that he can soften his heart and just take this love that I'm showing him. Ah well I'll just keep praying...and praying for this Danny kid to get away from mee!!! Oh yeah and I got Laura into the LJ scene!!! soo happy teehee.
God bless,
peace && love
♥ Jen
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(no subject) [Sep. 23rd, 2006|03:00 pm]
vintage_xx_love
[Current Location |the stars]
[Current Mood |scaredscared]
[Current Music |Iris - Goo Goo Dolls]

I never expected to be delt this card.
I never asked for emotional stress.
I never intended to get hurt.
I never wanted to fake a smile.
I never wished to fall in love with you.
I never needed anyone else until now.
I've never run from the future before.
I've never loved someone like this.
I've never had the shoulder that someone else needed.
I've never felt bittersweet pain.

Never any of this u n t i l y o u
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(no subject) [Sep. 22nd, 2006|11:17 pm]
vintage_xx_love
[Current Location |my room]
[Current Mood |sadsad]
[Current Music |Evanescence]

Wow uhh rough day...DJ, I don't care if you never see this, but I have to say this to someone. I know you're hurting, but you need to get a hold of your life. I don't want to see you fall again, you're too good for that. I know that you feel like people don't care about you, but there are way more people that do care about you. I'm not sure if you understand that. I care about you DJ, and I love you, you mean so much to me, and I'm not sure if you know that, I'm not sure you'll ever know that, but I pray to God every night you'll understand. You're such a great kid and you have dreams and you're gonna do great things, and I'm sure of that. God never said that nothing bad would ever happen to us, but he did say that he would never leave us. I'm always here for you man, and I hope you know that.
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Someone told me love would all save us, but how can that be? Look what love gave us. [Sep. 20th, 2006|04:56 pm]
vintage_xx_love
[Current Location |my room]
[Current Mood |contentcontent]
[Current Music |Slide - Goo Goo Dolls]

Ahh today was early release so I got home at like 12:20ish it was great!! I wish every day was early release teehee. Today I was kind of spacing out in third block and I think I know what I want to do like for a career. I want to go into business management and own a store kind of like Daddy's Junky Music. I think that would be really cool and I would benefit a lot from it. Anyways I don't really know what else to write. DJ seemed happier yesterday then when he was living at home. I don't really think he likes living with his mom, I think he likes my house better, like I'm not just saying that like I really do think so. I can't believe tomorrow is Thursday, then it will be Friday, which means its the weekend!! I'm going to Brenda's volleyball game on Friday and then back to her house after to watch Titanic. Then Andy will be homw this weekend I think, which is really good because I need him so bad like with everything that's going on with my dad and stuff like that. That kid is my support system like I go to him for help before Micayla or Melissa, he just knows how to help and he's always around to listen, so hopefully I'll be able to see him. OMG my mom is going through menopause!!! What a great thing to add to the mix of our household haha. DJ picked the perfect time to move in, eh? lol I'm having serious writers block, which is a big problem!! There's just not enough time in one day to get everything done that I wish I could. Like okay my schedule is wake up at 5:30 go to school at 7 get home at 2:15 eat something do homework take a shower go to bed. I hate it!! And there's only two days in a weekend...AHHH GOD!! Too much to do, not enough time. Oh oh I've been saving the tabs from soda cans and like my mom's beer cans (thought I'd specify =]) and I want to make curtains with them like string them together, that would be soo amazing!! Haha I'm such a weirdo, but you love me. Maybe you don't, I can't be so sure who does and who doesn't. Ah well, I know God does, and that's good enough for me.
God bless,
peace && love,
♥ Jen
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(no subject) [Sep. 19th, 2006|10:38 am]
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[Current Location |my room]
[Current Music |Nickelback - Far Away]

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(no subject) [Sep. 19th, 2006|09:52 am]
vintage_xx_love
[Current Location |my room]
[Current Mood |sicksick]
[Current Music |Aerosmith - I don't want to miss a thing]

My life is upside-down. I've having so many problems with my dad and school and my music and just pretty much everything. Like I can't even take it anymore, no lie. It's so hard. I hate being at South too. I wish I was at North. =/ All my best friends are up there, Micayla, Melissa, well Andy's at bording school, but whatever. Like I have no support system right now and its killing me. DJ spent the night at my house last night. He might be moving back in with us...idk. I was getting used to being the only child again, but we had fun and I'm always willing to help him out. He's like my brother like we have such a unique relationship and its really cool. I just hope he knows how much I love him and I do care about him, and I wonder if he cares about me just as much. Home sick from school today...I was like dry heaving this morning. That is THE WORST!!! I hate it sooo much!! So I'm just sitting around today. I might do some science homework and maybe math too. I'll probably practice my guitar a little bit, and look for some new sheet music online too. I really want to read Proverbs today. Brian was talking on Sunday about how the books of the Bible weren't meant to be read in chapters, but all at once. Proverbs is an interesting and different book, so why not? Maybe a movie today too? Idk...I'll update later.
♥ Jen

Oh yeah, congrats to Lukas Rossi on his win on Rockstar last Wednesday, Lukas, I was behind you and your runner-up Dilana all the way!! Good luck to you both!!
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